As I read a fellow Hip Sister's blog tonight, I felt a pang of compassion and a tug at my heart. No matter where we are or what we do, we Hip Sisters are connected in so many ways. So I felt inclined to write to her and also to tell you what I told her.
Go easy on yourselves, ladies.
Pre- or post-surgery, we need not beat ourselves up over our limitations. Getting back into a routine is hard after a PAO. At three months post-op, I'm still struggling to lift weights and dance the way I could before surgery.
In my dance class, I usually am in the front, leading the others and looking graceful and competent. The past two weeks, I've situated myself in the back. Because I can't do some of the moves and have pain, I feel discouraged. Same goes with lifting weights. Unable to lift as much as I used to, I feel that everyone's looking at me and thinking, "Gosh, she's weak."
I want to wear a sign that says, "I'm recovering from major surgery" so everyone will know how great I'm doing, not how ungraceful or weak I am!
But the thing is, it's not important what strangers think. It's just not. So do what they say and dance like nobody's watching. Think of how far you've come and celebrate the small stuff. It's discouraging at times, but if I know anything about Hip Sisters, it's that we're tough enough to outlast the tough times.