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Guilty

I have to admit my guilt.

I've been feeling bad for how well I've been doing. After reading through a few of my hip sisters' blogs and recently receiving news of another hip sister who has been through a terrible time, I question whether I should continue to post my successes.

I know how it feels. The envy, the disappointment, the "why me." The "why not me." I don't want to cause anyone to feel this way after reading my posts.

So I ask myself: Why do I post the good stuff? And I answer:

For a personal record of my journey.
For a reminder of how far I've come.
For never forgetting to be thankful for my good fortune because it could be gone tomorrow.
And most importantly, to inspire all of you who hope to reach the point I'm at today.

So I continue to write about my physical and emotional successes and hope you understand my reasons. And if you don't, maybe it will make you feel better knowing that I still have chronic tailbone pain. :)

Comments

Brick said…
You better continue to post! I would much rather read positive recoveries so I have more to look forward too.
TnT said…
Everyone has their own story and all of them are important. I can't imagine that anyone wouldn't wish the best possible recovery for each and every one of her hip sisters. When I was having tailbone pain (seems to have subsided lately) I felt for you. I still have occasional back pain but nothing like Brandie's. We can all relate to each other's pain and successes. Please keep posting, it's so nice to hear how well you are doing, and if you have an occasional bad day you can post that too!
Jen said…
I love your posts and I have had the same thoughts. I am so glad to see that you're still doing well!
Jen
Cass said…
Thank you Jen!

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