Both have been accompanying me as I wean off my pain meds.
My oxycontin prescription has run out, which leaves me with plain ole oxycodone to relieve my pain. I've been weaning myself from those, as well, and normally take one or two a day (instead of 1-2 every four hours). The combination has led me to discover just how much pain they've been masking.
The first day off the oxycontin was the hardest, as I hadn't slept much due to hallucinations in the night; extreme hot and cold flashes; and general discomfort of sleeping completely on my back with my leg in the cpm. When I got out of bed in the morning, everything hurt. From the palms of my hand to my armpits to both hips and knees, I was aching. It's not terrible pain, but combined with a lack of sleep, they're enough to make me a little cranky.
I got little to no sleep again last night, and started to cry this morning when Mom asked me what was wrong. "I'm so tired of not being able to move," I cried, feeling absolutely defeated. So I got out of the cpm, and Mom helped me onto my stomach. It felt wonderful, though a little strange on my hip, and I finally fell asleep. After 45 minutes or so, I woke up and proceeded to inch myself over to my right side. That, too, felt strange but okay, and I slept a little more in that position.
Sleeping is definitely the hardest thing to do right now. It's neither normal nor comfortable to lie in one position all night, but even when I'm done with the cpm, I don't know how I'm going to sleep. Right now, I can't get onto my stomach or side by myself, so I'm just stuck. I'm not supposed to actively move my own leg, so repositioning is just not easy. Any suggestions?
I'm starting to feel the gloom of my limitations, and hope this phase passes soon. I feel tired, achy and beaten down. Blech.