One week to go

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Another crazy busy week. I've had a gajillion thoughts that I've wanted to post but just haven't had the time.

I truly can't believe my surgery will be over this time next week. I've been planning so many details for so long and I'm really, really looking forward to getting on with it! My hips have really, really been hurting the past couple of weeks, so I'm really, really hoping that I can only go up from here (after the initial recovery, of course).

I don't feel at all the way I thought I would right now. Which is: emotionally detached.

A couple of months ago, I would tear up at the thought of leaving Colorado, leaving my friends and giving up the activities I love. Now, I just don't feel much of anything, except tired. I'm tired of hearing myself talk to people about the surgery, tired of planning, tired of pushing myself through major pain so I can be in shape for my recovery, tired of the thousand thoughts running though my head, tired of myself!

Speaking of working out, I am happy of how hard I've pushed myself these past six months. Warning: blowing of my own horn ahead. Partially because I'm as strong as I've ever been in my life, and partially for motivation to get back to this point once I'm used to sitting on my butt all day, I took some pictures tonight to show off my time in the gym.


P.S. Weightlifting has always left serious calluses on my hands. I have not bought any bike gloves to soften the blow of my crutches because I don't imagine I'll really need them. Unless, of course, I start to get blisters. Did any of my Hip Sisters get blisters from the crutches?

Comments

LH said…
Hi Cass,

I never got blisters. Crutching without bike gloves is like walking on concrete in ballet slippers. The gel pads in the gloves are to hands what air cushions in running shoes are to feet. Your hands will just get really sore and tired without them.

I know it's a horrible look, but if you're gonna be (effectively) walking on your hands all day you owe it to them to give them some extra padding. What's on the crutches isn't enough.

best,
Laura
April 17, 2008
MY PAO STORY said…
WOW - Wish I had an upper body like that!! I will always just use the excuse - I'VE HAD 2 KIDS!! You will have no problem lifting yourself in the hospital bed and using the crutches/walker/wheelchair.
I never used gloves - and my hands did get sore and I got calluses.
Make sure someone keeps us posted after your surgery - I'll be thinking about you!
PS - I am now 12 weeks out from RPAO and have been cane free for 2 weeks! I am barely limping!!
Beth
April 17, 2008
Sam said…
Hey Cass!

Glad you are ready to go...you are going to do great! I did have some blisters from the crutches but nothing too serious...doubt you will have any will the calluses you've built up.

Best of luck with the surgery...keep us posted!

Sam
April 22, 2008
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